Taking a look back in the past 10 years or so, I realized I've made myself do things I'm not entirely comfortable with. I would, for example, engage myself in nasty situations in which I still had to put on a smile as cover. I would leave a place I had fallen in love with for nine years and go back to somewhere I had never missed the least. I chose to become a salesperson despite knowing that I didn't have the character to succeed as one. Inbreeding in the office was never pretty when things fell apart but I did it more than once.
Looking back at my high school days, on the other hand, I didn't take risks. I avoided doing things I wasn't certain about. I only did things that wouldn't embarrass myself. In retrospect, my high school days have been my happiest days, yet I was a boring, nerdy, ignorant, yet arrogant person. I should definitely have tried and done more when I could afford to do so.
So was I stupid or brave for pushing myself outside my comfort zone the past 10 years? I've been upset over my situations. I've wished for a second chance for my decisions. But those choices were part of my experiences, part of me. I am what my past has made me. I'm sure I've also gained some wisdom out of my situations.
Still my motto: 塞翁失馬，焉知非福。
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I think you have the right attitude in going for things that don't seem comfortable to you. Sometimes it's better to head in the wrong direction than stay where you are. You will learn something from that.
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